January is behind me now. Let’s take stock.
My two biggest successes are not having any soda and not buying any video games for more than a dollar. It’s kind of sad that the two things I’m most proud of are things I’ve withheld from myself, but I can’t look at it that way. What these two accomplishments mean is that I’m gaining control of my urges. I’m letting my intellect control my impulses. If I continue on that path, I’ll accomplish great things.
I haven’t written in my blog every day. In fact, I’ve missed several days. I’m pretty sure I know why. I’ll get to that in a bit.
My diet has been okay, but I only started making real progress this week. After once again getting serious by buying a better scale and tracking my diet on WeightWatchers, I’m feeling pretty good about my prospects once again. I know how I need to eat. I just need to control my cravings and stick to the plan. I’ve started emailing my fiancee every morning about how I did the day before. That’s given me one more impetus to stay on course, and it’s saved me at least once this week from cheating. I can’t lie to her, so I’d have to face the shame of admitting I ate poorly. Also, she’s always encouraging, and I love getting compliments from her. I want her to be proud of me and that drives me forward.
I’ve done absolutely no personal programming this year. I’ve done very little reading. I haven’t completed any video games. These are among the least important goals I’ve set, but they all stem from two important problems: not getting enough sleep and Internet addiction. Obviously, the two are often related. I’ll get deeper into my thoughts about both of these soon.
As for today, I’ve made it my focus to stop procrastinating. I want to play game and have fun. Who doesn’t? But, I have to realize that sometimes there is just too much that needs to get done before I can have happy fun time. I’ve gotten sullen and resentful in the past when I’ve had too many chores to do, and I’ve put them off. I convinced myself that the chores can wait, because I “deserve” to have some fun. Well, that’s not going to work if I really want to make some progress. Besides, aren’t programming and learning the guitar fun? They are, but not in quick bursts like games and YouTube videos. So, I finished as many of my chores as I could tonight. I’ve only got 30 minutes before bed now, so I’m going to relax for just a bit before heading to bed.
Overall, I feel good about my progress. I’m still refining my methods, but I’ve learned that I can make real improvements if I really work at it.